A Very Sad View of My Garden

Hello fellow gardeners and friends in the Hive Garden community, how are you all doing? I hope you are always in good health, doing well, and that your gardens are thriving.

It has been a very long time since I last shared an update about my little garden. This green space was left abandoned and untouched for about a year and a half due to my hectic work schedule. However, because I felt that the working environment there was no longer a good fit for me, I finally made the big decision to resign. I chose to come home and return to living life the way I truly want to.

Adulthood and working life can be incredibly exhausting, and whether I was ready or not, I had to face that reality. My routine back then felt so monotonous, leaving for work just as the sun rose and only returning home long after it had set. During that entire period, I barely even caught enough sunlight. The physical and mental exhaustion truly haunted me through those times.

After officially leaving my job, I tried to pick up the pieces and rebuild my life. Around the end of February, I began resetting my mind while working on this little garden. I cleaned it up, rearranged the layout, and replanted everything from scratch just to regain my sense of freedom and see my green sanctuary come alive again. I was so excited to work with this green space once more. Even though I started it right at the beginning of the fasting month (Ramadan), I still made the absolute best use of that momentum.

Long story short, everything went smoothly at first. The seeds I sowed sprouted beautifully, some plants began to flower, and others even bore fruit. I felt so happy and content with the results. Even though it wasn't a massive harvest, there was an incredible sense of pride in my heart. At that time, I successfully harvested several plants like long beans, spinach, purple eggplants, mustard greens, basil, cayenne peppers, and also tomatoes.

Once that first harvest was done, I had big plans in mind. I intended to expand the garden beds and introduce new varieties to my plot. My passion was burning bright because it had been so long since I last felt the soil in my hands and breathed in the fresh scent of leaves.

But unfortunately, reality did not align with my plans and expectations. Just like life itself, not everything goes exactly the way we want it to, and sometimes, there is nothing left to do but accept it with an open heart.

Right after the harvest season ended, around the end of April and throughout May, the rainfall suddenly became extremely frequent. If I remember correctly, it rained four to five times a week, leaving the soil constantly drenched, saturated, and muddy. Even the small creek right next to my house overflowed onto the road several times. (I managed to take a few photos and videos of it, but they seem to have been deleted as I can no longer find them in my gallery).

Due to the relentless rain, the burning passion and desire I once held inside slowly dampened and faded away along with the downpour. Slowly but surely, I lost my motivation, and that state of mind has persisted until now.

Now, you can see for yourself the rather sad view of this garden. It looks completely neglected and overgrown with weeds. I actually managed to clear the weeds once around the beginning of June. But alas, weeds always grow back faster, completely uncaring of whether we pay attention to them or not.

Because of the continuous rain and the creeping lethargy, I ended up procrastinating on the rest of the garden chores. I just let my garden wither and die, waiting for a new chapter to begin. To be completely honest, right now I desperately need a little motivation or a spark of encouragement to revive and bring the green back to this place. The fire inside me to start all over again seems to be completely extinguished for the time being.

Moving forward, I know I need to establish a new schedule and plan to start sowing seeds once again so they can grow. Hopefully, through this post and my interactions with all of you, I can rekindle the fire within myself to start taking those steps forward. I am just afraid that if this condition continues, my garden will be completely forgotten and abandoned, just like it was a few years ago.

Thank you for taking your time to read my blog! Stay safe!!!

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