Looking Back, Letting Go, and Moving Forward (ENG-GER)

Good morning everyone!
This morning, I woke up to the gentle fragrance of the pink roses and lilies blooming on my balcony. More lily buds have opened overnight, adding their delicate beauty to the morning and somehow filling the air with good vibes for the day ahead.

It is a wonderful day, the sun is shining, the sky is bright, and everything around me feels just right. There are no complaints, no drama, and nothing demanding my attention. For a moment, my mind is quiet, my heart feels light, and I find myself simply grateful for this peaceful little corner of life.

Right now, I am feeling fine. Looking back over the past three and a half years, however, I can honestly say that it felt like hell at times—with depression, health issues, and the financial and legal burdens that came with processing all the necessary documents after my husband’s death.

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Today, I feel free from those burdens. I am learning to live my life again, taking things one day at a time and perhaps even revisiting my bucket list to see what I would still like to experience and accomplish in the years ahead.

I have always had a fear of water, so last year I decided to challenge myself and took scuba diving lessons in an effort to overcome it. The swimming and diving center is just a short walk from my flat, which makes it very convenient. I had to put my lessons on hold for a while because of my trip to Spain, but I am determined to resume them in the next few days. It feels good to face a fear rather than allowing it to limit me.

I am still finding my way and adjusting to life on my own. One of the things that helps me is staying active and joining cultural and social communities that give me opportunities to meet people and keep life interesting. I love learning new things because, to me, learning is a lifelong process. There is always something new to discover, whether it is a new skill, a new place, a new idea, or simply another perspective on life. And meeting like-minded people along the way makes the journey even more meaningful.

Perhaps happiness is not always found in grand moments. Sometimes, it is as simple as waking up to flowers, sunshine, and a peaceful mind.
And today, I have all three. 🌹☀️🌸

Zusammenfassung- Deutsch

Guten Morgen!
Heute geht es mir gut. Wenn ich auf die letzten dreieinhalb Jahre zurückblicke, war diese Zeit mit all den gesundheitlichen Problemen, der Depression und den finanziellen sowie rechtlichen Belastungen nach dem Tod meines Mannes sehr schwer.

Inzwischen fühle ich mich von diesen Sorgen befreit und lerne, mein Leben wieder selbstbestimmt zu genießen. Vielleicht ist es auch an der Zeit, meine persönliche Bucket List wieder hervorzuholen und zu überlegen, was ich noch erleben und entdecken möchte.

Eine meiner Herausforderungen war meine Angst vor dem Wasser. Deshalb habe ich im vergangenen Jahr mit dem Tauchen begonnen, um diese Angst zu überwinden. Nach einer Pause wegen meines Aufenthalts in Spanien werde ich meinen Unterricht in den nächsten Tagen wieder aufnehmen.

Ich gewöhne mich immer mehr an mein Leben allein und versuche, aktiv zu bleiben, neue Dinge zu lernen und interessante Menschen kennenzulernen. Für mich ist Lernen ein lebenslanger Prozess – und Gleichgesinnte zu treffen, macht das Leben noch schöner.

Vielleicht liegt das Glück nicht immer in den großen Momenten. Manchmal ist es so einfach wie das Aufwachen inmitten von Blumen, Sonnenschein und innerer Ruhe.
Und heute habe ich alle drei.

Happy weekend everyone!

Schönes Wochenende euch allen!

GIF courtesy of @gremayo. All photos are by @mers